Been there, feel sorry for you. Work on yourself and try to adapt abundance mindset. There will be a lot of other people who value you. This is a temporary shit bro. Believe me. https://www.verywellmind.com/how-to-shift-from-a-scarcity-mindset-to-an-abundance-mindset-5220862

Sorry to heat it mate. May you find a soul mate who trusts you and live by side

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